zoe = God's kinda life

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

frustration

hehe, judging from my title, it's gonna be a bad post again eh? haha, i promise i'll try to add in my sense of humour into this venting session to 'not' turn u off. sighhh, i've been a really really good girl all day yesterday leh, u can ask ashley, i only slept like 30mins during the day, chiong up until 12 midnight only go to bed.. but guess what? so much for the hard work.. i woke up at 330am.. open my eyes, the room was pitch dark, i know i'm doomed for the night. took out my faithful iPod to lullaby me to sleep.. but sigh, didnt work this time. sleeplessness prevails.

i blame the tons of stuff that came gushing into my brain. they cant wait till later.. like in the day or some time better.. poor brain.. so frustrating.. the more frustrated i get, the more i couldnt sleep, the more i cant sleep, the more i get frustrated, so the vicious cycle went on and on until 5plus i think.. prayed for God to take away all these 'baggages' & grant me the peace of mind. slept... woke up at 8am with a bad headache.. floating around like a zombie. sigh, should have prayed earlier.. so dumb.. grrr, i'm not going force myself to stay up till so qi can anymore... going on strike! (i'm gonna get lotsa slaps for this one)

miss home, miss frens.. i'm missing jerrine's birthday party this friday nite.. sobz..

so sien nowadays. cant really unpack cos i'll be moving to my residence next monday, but need to use some stuff so i started digging in my boxes.. feels like squatters.. feel so unsettled.. emailed the residence guy to let me move in early but he said no, deadline over d. sigh sigh sigh. so wunai. so no heart. so pek cek. only interesting i've done so far is last nite i watched 'mercury rising'.. good movie, kept me awake for 2 hours..

ohya, forgot to thank Jo.. thanks for giving me an extremely detailed reenactment of Full House. it's like basically me watching a marathon of the last few episodes in one hour, haha! Can never find a friend like that anywhere else in the world.. sigh, i miss u too...

sigh, dun think i kept my promise to try to make this post humourous. sorry la, really cannot. talking to lik xiong, my cousin bro now.. he said i'm the most tabah girl he knows, sure can survive one.. sure or not? how come i dun think i'm tabah.. must really thank all who 'keep me company' thru msn these few days.. appreciate it. and also ppl like my little bro who keeps nudging me to keep me awake.. thanks..

sorry la, going thru quite an emotional roller coaster now. or maybe it's just PMS... whichever it is, if i've offended u in any way or form.. maaf banyak.. me needs to look deep down inside to recover the cheerful self.. wish me luck!

Zoe @ 8:34 AM | comment link here

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